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Saturday, December 02, 2006 

Running out of meds and scared!

I quit my job a while ago, fully intending to be right back to work, but it didn't work out that way on account of the surgery and such. I also got temporary custody of my 5 yo niece Janell right before Thanksgiving because my sister is unable to take care of her right now for various reasons. Because I can't work for the moment due to the health stuff, I went and applied for medicaid etc. and the caseworker told me that I'd be eligible. The problem is that Janell was getting benefits in NJ and my sister's caseworker has failed to send my caseworker a fax confirming that Janell is not getting them out there anymore, and they can't start my stuff until that happens. I am hoping that when that fax finally arrives it will go back to Dec 1, because right now I have very little meds left. I'm taking less than I'm supposed to so that I don't totally run out, and I can tell. My insurance from my old job lapsed on the 30th but I didn't have the money to pay for the meds because I'd been out of work for 3 weeks and spent what little money I had saved up to go to NJ and get her, and the combined copays are about $100, and my sister has been unemployed for months and didn't have any money to give me. I quite literally have no money left and my bank account is in the negative. My boyfriend has picked up some groceries and such and I still owe him $500 for fixing my van to sell it (which later got stolen and trashed) and I don't want to owe him more than that. I hadn't worried about the meds much before now because I was told several weeks ago I absolutely qualify, but I didn't plan on this fax thing causing a delay.

The Zoloft I'm not overly worried about. I don't get depressed much. The Lamictal is an absolute necessity though. I'm taking 25 - 50% of what I'm supposed to be taking, and I am irritable as HELL. These kids are driving me freaking crazy. I'm in MO and we just had a huge snow storm, and they were off school on Thurs and Fri. They are both only children and not used to being around other kids for long periods of time; my daughter is jealous of the time I spend with/attention I give to Janell; and my daughter is also going out of her mind because Janell constantly wants to be around her and do stuff with her. And at 11 years old having a 5 yo up your rear is irritating as hell so I understand... but I wish they'd stop freaking bickering. I'm SO TIRED of hearing "Aunt Carrie.... Mom...."!

To make things worse, my daughter has head lice! Look at my myspace pictures - she's got SO MUCH HAIR! I have spent countless hours "nit picking" and we're not done by a long shot. She gets impatient at sitting still and then she gets mad when I pull out hairs. I don't want to try to pick off the egg because if I drop it and it stays in her hair.... this way I can see the egg still attached to the hair and I've got a bowl of water to put it in so I know where they are and I can flush them all.

It's only Saturday afternoon... ugh.

There's more details about the van and surgery stuff on my myspace blog if you're interested.

http://blog.myspace.com/phillygirlinmissouri

Sounds like you have a lot on your plate. THe head lice is no fun. Been there and done that twice with my youngest.

Good luck with the insurance and meds.

okay so things are really stressful right now. Do you have a pdoc that could give you some samples? I'm a college student and my doc knows that I don't have much cash- and if I call and ask- she will leave some samples with her secretary so I can stop by pick them up without actually having to pay for a visit. See if you can work something out- because you HAVE to take your meds to get you through this rough time, but I bet you already knew that.

I have never tried this, but I did run across this link: http://www.life-pharmacy.com/generics/generic_lamictal.html

I blogged about it, and haven't found anyone who has tried it, so please don't take this as an endorsement. But for a buck a day, many deductibles would be higher than buying here.

Good luck, I've been where you are.

any updates, sweetie?

hope that things get better for you

As annoying as Montel Williams is, the program he advertises, PPA, actually works. I'm Bipolar and like you I had trouble getting the State to approve medical coverage. I went and spent time looking through the PPA website and found a program through Pfizer that will allow me to receive my Zoloft for free and several programs that provide deep discounts on meds as long as you are not Medicaid covered.

https://www.pparx.org/Intro.php

That's the website. I recommend it to anyone needing help with the cost of meds that are so vital. Also, Walmart pharmacies have a program where certain drugs are available for only $4.00. Where I live, the generic for Zoloft is on that list. Give your local Walmart Super Center a call and ask if they have a similar program.

Good Luck!!!

I hope all is well.. Have you quit blogging?

thanks for sharing...

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